Starting A New Year

 

Sorry everyone that I haven’t posted in a while. It’s hard to stay consistent.

 

Well, here we are in the new year and I couldn’t be more thankful. I’m going to be very honest and open with y’all in the post. This past year was definitely a rough one. I struggled with severe depression and anxiety, went through a break up, and dealt with an eating disorder, among some other things. And yet, as I look back over the year I see so much to be thankful for. I made so many good memories, started working on a music album with a friend, and started making plans to move. But the greatest thing that I am thankful for this year is God’s amazing love and mercy. He showed me my heart and my desires, and let’s just say He was not first in my life. I was relying on myself. I took on everyone’s burdens because I thought by being the therapy friend, I was useful and worth something. I tried to be holy on my own, and I sorely failed. I couldn’t handle the burden of being good in my own strength or the weight of finding my worth in anything but Christ. God had to remove all of that very painfully. He stripped me of my idols until all I had left was Him, and despite how hard that was, I wouldn’t change a thing. He opened my eyes to His truth and my sin. I am so thankful for what he’s shown me this past year and I can’t wait to see what He does in this year to come!

 

I want to encourage y’all, since it’s the start of the year, to just ask God to reveal your heart. Ask Him to show you your deepest sin and your biggest struggles. Ask Him where He is in your heart and what you need to do to make Him first and foremost. Seek Him out through His word and prayer and rely on Him and His strength. Pray Psalm 139: 23-24, “Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous was in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!” But don’t pray this prayer if you don’t mean it. Be prepared for God to show you some nasty and messy things in your life and being willing to submit yourself to be change and molded by Him. Because He really is the only thing that will satisfy your longings and desires.

 

I challenge y’all to memorize Psalm 139: 23-24, and if you truly are willing to be changed by Christ, to pray it every morning this month. Start your day by asking what needs to be removed from your heart and life. Praying that all of you will be willing to be molded by the Lord and His word in this new year :)

Lex ♡